Three weeks into June, I finally have begun to get my life back on track. Transitioning from Baltimore to Jersey had taken over my life. While I still don’t have everything figured out just yet, the level of stress and frustration has significantly decreased. One of the hardest things about leaving Baltimore was deciding who and what to leave behind. A close second was not knowing what my new life in New Jersey would look like. In moving out of my apartment, I struggled to decide what pieces of furniture and old memories I’d need to let go off. In finding a new job, I struggled letting go of some of the relationships I had built and many of the classroom materials I acquired over the years. In my dating life, I struggled to figure out if I should end an on again-off again “situationship.” I finally got to a point where I was discarding things left and right, no longer responding to phone calls, denying requests to hang out, and operating in my own bubble.
In reflection, I realized that I had outgrown my circumstances in Baltimore. I needed to get up and go in order to reach the next level. One of the topics I recently recorded a Motivational Monday video on was pushing yourself out of your comfort zone in order to succeed. Choosing to move to New Jersey is one of the most uncomfortable things I’ve ever done, but it feels AMAZING. I no longer feel stressed or as if my life is constantly falling apart. While there is some natural anxiety about what the future holds for me, I feel so free! I let go of my previous job, for a new one with better pay and a true opportunity to grow as a professional. I now have the opportunity to be closer to my friends and family after being away for so long. After struggling with dating, I met someone great who seemed to have fallen out of the sky! I’ve also been able to find a new hobby and hustle in doing eyelashes! (Shameless plug – booking coming soon! Lol)
I say all this to say – it’s okay if you don’t know what the hell you’re doing! A strong 9 times out of 10, the people around you have no idea what they’re doing either. Sometimes you won’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and it will be hard pushing yourself to move forward, BUT you must! Until you step outside of yourself, along with the pressure and fears you’ve placed on yourself, you won’t see the results coming because you’re too focused on how you’ll get it all done. It wasn’t until I truly decided to disconnect from all things, feelings, and people that were not pouring into me that I was finally able to enjoy the ride rather than anticipating it’s ending.